The first experience I remember having was when I was home sick from school one day. I was laying in my mother’s bed watching television when I heard the sound of something large and heavy tumbling down the enclosed, unused set of back stairs that went from the laundry room upstairs to the back yard. I called my mother at work, which happened to be the county police department, to tell her what I heard. Before I knew it, half the county law enforcement, lead by the coroner much to my amusement, was there to check out the house. No one could find any explanation for the sound. I remember my mom saying I overreacted and it must have been a small animal like a squirrel that managed to get in the back stairwell. I know it was not a small animal. It was a very loud sound that only a very heavy object could make. This dismissal was the beginning of a long road of experiences being treated as though I was lying or dramatizing to get attention. After all, the new babies were getting all the attention, right? Mom was sick and unable to focus on me, you know, fighting for her life and all. Why wouldn’t I make things up? Seems logical. The truth is that I didn’t and don’t make these things up.
My mom bought me a new pair of jazz shoes for dance class. Before I even had a chance to wear them, one went missing. I was grounded for a excessively long time over that (as they were quite expensive, how could I be so ungrateful and careless?). I remember one day my mom getting into the attic, probably for holiday decorations since that’s the only reason the attic door was ever opened. There in the attic, she found my missing brand new jazz shoe. She asked why it was up there? Seriously? Why would I do that?
One summer, probably during high school sometime, I woke up alone as my parents had left for work and my sisters swept off to day care. Normal day. I picked up the phone in my bedroom to call a friend, after all, I was a teenage girl, it’s what we do. I talked, most likely about nothing for quite some time, and then went to call my mother at work as she required me to do at least once a day to check in. When I picked up the phone, there was no dial tone. I thought I just hadn’t hung up the phone for long enough and tried again. After several attempts, I was frustrated and went downstairs to find another phone as mine must have broken somehow in the last 20 seconds. When I got to the phone downstairs, I found the receiver off of the hook and thrown across a chair in a room where no one had been. In fact, no one was in the house at all. Had it been like that when I woke up, I would have been unable to call out to my friend that morning, right? So I hung it up and called my mom. I told her what happened, not because I was really frightened, but because it was just weird. Of course, here again was the SWAT team and every available officer in the city and county checking out every room in the house to find the intruder. There was no intruder. Not a findable one anyway.
I was making my lunch for school one morning after everyone else had already set out for their day. I set my empty lunchbox on the counter and wiped out the previous days mess. The first thing I went for was grapes from the fridge on the other side of the kitchen. As I pulled them out, I dropped one back into the drawer. Now, my step father was/is a little, OK, a lot, obsessive about things being as they should be and a grape rotting in the bottom of the fridge would just not do! So to avoid that hassle, I immediately began searching for the lost grape. I struggled to find it. I even pulled the drawer completely out of the fridge to find it. I never found the thing in there and I figured if I looked that hard and couldn’t find it, he wouldn’t either, so I decided to move forward with the lunch preparation in an effort to be on time for school. When I walked back across the kitchen to my freshly wiped clean lunch box, there in the dead center of the open box was a single grape. My heart jumped a little and I’m pretty sure I bought my lunch that day.

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